I have so much I wanna get done but I have no motivation to actually do those things. I lag in life.
Source: kianahixon
He gets home 3AM calls me talks for a few minutes then tells me he doesn’t think he can call me to wake me up in the morning so I can move my car.. He’s so cute. Did I mention I have yet to be disappointed in him?
5/29
After some real deep thinking, i came to the conclusion.. that its not wrong to move on so quickly. If a guy treats you like a princess why should you block it off? Yeah sure it should take some time. but he’s here now. and i have no intentions of playing games. Just cause the guy before him treated you like dookie doesnt mean you should treat him like dookie. Right?
Havent disappointed me in any way yet
Never fails, I get a Goodmorning phone call. And a text a few hours later cause he knows i went back to sleep. Tell me sweet nothing’s like how his schedule revolves around his family, baseball and
Me. & reassuring me that even tho he’s busy during summer when he’s home his time is mine. Hearing him say he’d rather have me to himself warms my heart.. But I can’t do it.. Not again.
Loc huynh ;
You’ve been on my mind alot lately. I dont know why. I honestly dont even like talking to you on the phone whenever you call, its just an awkward silence sometimes. This has been the longest we’ve ever been apart since we met. its crazy how your just out my life. I still cant get over it. My middle school sweet heart haha. i miss our relationship sometimes.. to be in love with my bestfriend. But im glad i moved on. I learned alot thru the process. How i had to tone down my sturbborness and how i have to realize i cant always be first. I know im selfish sometimes but im just used to everybody leaving. I rather leave before getting left. it just hurts a little less. Maybe thats why i cant be with anybody seriously. i was so happy with ** but i just stopped. like i couldnt go forward. I was scared shitless. I couldnt even tell him how i felt. i cant bring it out in words. what do you tell a person thats so happy with you? ” oh i cant be with you because im scared of you leaving? ” i dont know. I just wanna be alone. It saves a whole lotta trouble for everybody else.
This isn’t what I wanted..
get a grip col.
This is pure fuckery, my blog is full of lovey dovey sappy bullshit. WHAT IS UP WITH THAT!? im going thru my twitter and my tumblr and all i see is hearts boyfriend this boyfriend that. ITS DRIVING ME CRAZY! im annoying myself! but i cant help it. Im so infatuated with this kid. Its like im full on heads over heels in like with him. i didnt even feel like this with whats his face. I’ve seen him like three days in a row, and everybody who knows me knows that i never spend too much time with my significant other. I just like my space. But i wanna spend allll my damn time with him. whenever i know its my day off the first thing i think is.. I get to see him. -__- killing me softly. I never tell him this stuff tho. na he’d get to excited. he thinks we dont see each other enough. Im gonna just front like i dont wanna see him lol. cant get to soft ya know! thug life. lol. i hate this. I hate this so much. I hate being in like. I hate feeling like this. so so so much, Its not like me. I need to get a fcken grip. Fck you denny, for making me feel the way i do. Hate your ass.
